im so stress...

mornin.. today im so early arrived office... im the one open da doors everythin.. usually im da last coming to da office.. always late.. :) hhehehe.. last nite i cant slep well.. lot of thingz cross my mind.. sudenly everythin gonna be change. all dis things make me scared.. feelin want to cry.. actually im criyin oredy last nite..
hmm.. before dis evrthin work as i plan.. my life so smooth.. i have my work.. i have gud officemate here.. i have gud apartment.. i have my paris hilton room.. i have a nice2 bed.. i enjoy my work... i luv my work here eventho da salary not dat gud but i like working here coz i like doing marketing. i can dress up cantik2.. wearing nice2 clothes.. meet-up with lot lot of guys n sometime give me chances to flirt i think.. :P and da most important i enjoy my work here most da time.. most da things work properly for me. work as i wish... but i think not anymore after dis... sudenly evrythin gonna be chaged. im not in my comfort zone anymore. not anymore! all dis make me scared.. help me... what shud i do? what'z gonna be happen to me? sudenly i wish i can turn back. im so scared now.. help me... i hope my dad have backup plan for me.. honestly when my dad tell me about whats goin on yesterday... i fell so mad! im agry with him.. sudenly in start to blame him.... but after sometime i realize.. by blaming him nothin can change.. what shud i do now is come out with my new plan.. lets me think 1st..

hmmm k la.. after dis i need to go nilai.. do audit there.. i want to take my bfast 1st....

site work...

here im sharing with u all some photos dat i took yesterday.. :) well... dis the last thingz dat we need to do.. check n testing da last panel... finally we do the servo panel.. im so amaze with dis servo panel.. patut la the price for dis equipment dam mahal.. dis servo so canggih.. if u all c how its operate sure u will amaze.. :) eventho im still new in dis field... still not enuf knowledge about dis servo panel but im a bit proud to my self bcoz at least i had contribute something in dis project.. eventho juz a small part only.. heheheheh... at least i know something dat u all dun know maybe.. :P so after dis its more easier for me to do marketing about dis product.. coz i know how its operate n so on.. plus i had hands on it also.. so bangga... hahahaha... so perasan kan i? nevermind... gve me chance la to perasan a bit dis tym .. :)
ohya.. dun forget to my partner coz he help me a lot! thanks azrin.. without u... mati i.. hhehehe.. coz i dun know anything. actually most da work he done.. i ni post je lebih.. kihkihkih... jgn mare..

before start da work.. im so excited... stilll fresh kate kan.. :) dis is our fav room.. we call it 'sauna room'.. hehehehe.. welcome to da sauna room ..

ha... ni la servo panel.. dam berat n dam big. i still remember. dat day azrin n i need to remove dis panel.. OMG! berat gile! lastly ende-up my hand sakit n merah.. and i think sure azrin worst than me.. ala... he's guy.. im sure he ok with dat rite? (p/s: are u ok azrin? hehehhe.. if x ok pun, ok kan la jugak.. :P)

well... dis is servo controller.. yey! i know how to remove it.. to open it.. im expert oredy .. finally.. i can do it by my self.. :)

so comot.. tired oredy ma... juz want go home dis time...


yey! im done my work.. lets go home azrin... im tired!! sure u more more tired than me.. coz u do more work than me.. ohya.. you know.. i still remember, yesterday twice my partner gettin electric shock! thank god dia x pape.. i think after dis we need to stress to our boss about the safety tools n gloves la... i dun want to get dat shock.. i blum kawin lagi tau!!

today is tuesday..

stress stress stress... today im soooo stress. lot of thingz happen.. from the work thingz until the personal thingz... arghhhh.. :'( im really2 want to cry... i think, i cried oredy. but cried deep inside la.. :'( hmmm... i wish i can run a way from all dis... but i cant. no choice. i like it or not, i need to face it. . caiyok caiyok rina! u can do it!!! huhuhu..

today i juz arrived home around 9 pm... as usual... today we goin to da site againtz.. dam tired! i thot everythin can be settle by today but its not work as we plan. last minute few problms occur.. huhuhu... dats mean 2morow we still need to go there.. no choice.. hmmm 2day i spend like hell. ya la.. i need to pay for dis, for dat .. n plus all the client n Mr Tushar foods. i wish my Uncle Gordon there.. hahhahah .. so dat i no need to used my money.. :P kihkihkih... and now i realize how important my uncle Gordon be around... im totally broke oredy.. i had 3 claims dat still not clear by company.. Cathy.... cepat2 la get back to office n clear up all my claims... im broke oredy.. :'(

hmmm... dis week my schedule quiet pack.. until friday i'll be buzy... goin here, goin there, do that, do this.. kurus la mcmni.. hehhehe.. but ok what. so dat no need for me to diet.. :) talkin about diet.. nex week gonna be fasting month oredy.. so gonna be diet month for me i think. ya la... im quiet picky in terms of food... hopefuly im not goin to da site anymore la.. x sanggup... huhuhu.. pity me la boss... im prettty sure that nex week, on the 1st week of fasting month im gonna be flat.. passive at the office.. hhehehe.. get ready la my office mate ya.. dun ask me if u look me sleepy... slow in doin works, blurr2 n so on.. hhehehehe...

k la... im sleepy oredy.. to upload my photo at side today also im a bit lazy.. :) tomorow la k fwen i upload.. gud nite... time to sleep.. daaa

today is saturday...

hmmm... today lot of things happen.. ade yg hepy... n ade gak yg sedih.. :( but dis is life rite? not everthin will work as we plan, as we wish, & as we want rite... ?? hmmm dis mornin actually m not feelin well but i try to be strong.. im degil want to go rehearsal for my convo gak.. so today i went to uniten also eventho the doct dun let me to do dat.. :) dis mornin i woke up with the pink mood. somehow today im so gatalness want to wear selendang. my favorite selendang (pink one) :P so today eventho im feelin a bit weak but with the pink mood im become stronger .. .. around 9 am i reach my beloved UNITEN.. waa.... so ramai students attend the rehearsal.. everyOne excited about the convocation.. ya la... who's not excited rite? finally... after a long long journey yg penuh berliku-liku... akhirnye we manage to graduate.. kind of proud about myself la.. eventho my result not dat gempak.. kihkihkih... yg pentg i manage to get my degree in eletrical power... bangga kejap.. :P

dis mornin i meet with lot lot of my fwen... so during the briefing we talk n talk n talk n talk... so many things we want to borak.. ya la... quiet lama we not meet rite.. so bile lg... ini la masa nye... hmmm somehow i miss my study life... what i can.. study life la plg best! i miss it so much.. da most thingz i miss my fwen... i miss them so much. a lot of thingz we gone thru.. from the sadness until happiness.. we share everythin.. i hope ourfwenship will long lasting.. by da way today we dun have time to take pict. evry1 kind of bz do dat do dis.... so i juz manage to take pict with nurul n Qis only.. ok guyz.. we will take a lot lot lot of pict during our big day dis sunday K! :)

tOdaY im SooOOOO hepy.. i meet-up my fwenz, my best fwenz, n my dad. and also i got my pink camera also.. Yey!!! so dis sunday i can take pict with my pink camera oredy.. Thanks.. thanks soo much!!! Luv so much dat camera! im so hepy today... i hope i can replace all my sadness with dis happinest.. i wish too... talkin about my sadness...hmmmm dis sunday is my convo day.. but my mama will not come.. im quiet sad actually.. its ok la.. whatever it is i try to understand her.. i Luv u mama...

another thingz... before dis m always berangan to celebrte my convo with my beloved.. i want to share my big day with someOne i Luv, SomeOne special to me .... but i dun think it will bcome reality eventho now i have another 2 extra invitation card.. (p/s: thanks for my abang angkat for gettin me dis extra card..) whom ya im gonna give another 2 invitation card ya? hmm maybe 1 i will gve to my brother. so that he can join my dad n my sist coming my convo day.. another 1 i dun know yet to give whom... i want to give him but.... i dun think he want... hmmm kind of membazir if juz let it like dat. ya la.. evryOne willing to pay another $50 for extra invitation card. but me??? hmmm.. i wish he will be there during my convo... i hope he know how much i want to c him during my big day.. ya... i know.. im a bit ego.. i want him to be there but i never told him... a'ahhh! juz forget it rina... it will not become reality rina! stop berangan! wake up!

ok la... im sleeply oredy.. hopefuly i can slep tonite.. n my fever will not bother my slepp..

Actually da doct dun let me go there, but m so degil .... :P

I miss my fwen soooo much!!

i miss my mama....

dis my mama.. i miss her so much now... :'(

huhuhu... yesterday... today n tomorrow i on leave.. actually MC ... doct gave me MC so dat i can get enuf rest... huhuhu.. so borink here.. juz mkn tdo mkn tdo n mkn tdo je... all dis boz of my fever n flue la... eh not H1N1 tau! juz normal fever.. i think maybe boz last few week im too bz n too tired workin i think.. dats y dis week flat oredy.. demam oredy.. hahhaha..

hmmmm today... da whole day at home and takin medic only make me feel miss my mama.. i miss my mama soooo mucH! i wish i can go home.. usually whenever im sick, mama will take care of me... cook my fav food.. make me milo n so on... huhuhu.. ;'( i want go home.. i miss mama.. i wish rite now im at home. so dat im not feelin so lonely like today... im havin fever but no one's here to take care of me... my dad, my sist, my aunty, my fwen, n ... evryOne bz with their work.. their things... no choice rite? hmmm im so sad.. few times i cryies today.. i miss mama.. i want go home.. i want slep with mama... i want be hug by mama.... i want eat mama's cook, i want manja2 with mama, i want baring2 at mama... i want everythin with mama... :'( mama.... i miss u... especially now... today few times i call mama.. talk with mama .. n cries at mama... like baby oredy i think today... hmmm mama... i want go home... :'( i wish i can fly.. so dat i can fly go back kelantan... but i cant..

hmmm mama... i miss my mama now.... i want go home... :'(

k la.. i want to slep. .. dat medic make me sleepy oredy... hmmm mama... i miss u sooo much mama.. i want to dream of mama tonite... i miss my mama so much!

Finally....

baby sofia... Im coming... tomorow we go jalan2 k.. im gonna be ur babysitter tomorow...
(P/s: can i be gud aunty n gud babysitter?? hikhikhik.. will c k.. :P)

hehehe... finally all my work done oredy.. all the preparations for my bos trip to Philippines done oredy.. bahagia nye hidup... :) after 2 weeks we suffered, rite now everyOne can smile oredy.. The worst day is today.. Ya la.. can u imagine.. within 1 hour i need to prepare new topics n make it slides! stress tu.. and i cryin oredy for a while dis mornin .. :P Thank god my YM fwen help me.. Thanks You.. hmmm talkin about him.. sudenly i feel.. kind of miss him.. i think quiet long we not meet.. n sometime i kind of forget oredy about him.. i dun know.. its not bcoz i want to forget but i need to forget. its complicated! i dun want to talk about it bcoz i oredy made my decision.. so i should kept it dat way.. whatever it is.. i cant look back rite? ya.. maybe one day i will regret but its ok.. at least i will learn somethg from it.. i cant be like before dis anymore.. i need to be strong! i need to be brave! i need to be independent! most important i need to luv my self 1st! Dun let anyOne hurt me anymore! caiyok caiyok! u can do it Rina!!





well.. tomorow is saturday ... yey!!! what i want to do ekk???? shoping?? :( cant la... broke oredy.. i need to pay dat.. to pay dis.. huhuhu... im pokai oredy.. pity me.. btw last wek bru je shoping.... thanks You.. im soooo hepy last wek... all the clothes n shoe i bought still not wear.. heehhe... eh next next wek my convocation.. i want a new kasut... {Rina say : " hmmm you.... i want a new kasut??? can i ?? "} hehehhe.. u promise oredy .. :P dun forget!





Ohya.. tomorrow i need to go puchong la... tomorow i become babysitter.. my aunty ask my help to jaga baby sofia... dis cutey sofia... so nakal.. n so mengada2.. hikhikhik.. like me la.. i miss her so so sooooooooo much! cant wait to go Puchong.. k la... its 5.30 oredy.. time to go home... nyeh nyeh nyeh.. bubye bos...

i need a break... :'( wish i can have a holiday

How tired i am.. i still need to go work.. :( what to do.... how tired u are u still need to smile rite?

Today is Thursday... i wish today is Saturday! dis weeek i'm too bz.. Lot of work need to be done. Exausted oredy! huhuhu... Since Mondy i cant breath.. i need to do dat.. to do dis... sometime x cukup tangan .. Thank god i have a gud-gud officemate.. They help me a lot! without them i think sure i can handle all dis.. Dis week every day i came back late.. well... what to do.. work rite? Sometime i wish i dun work.. so dat i can juz relex - relex n enjoy my life.. fill my time with reading novel, shopin, jalan2, n lepak2 .. can ekk?? hmmm x jugak.. coz after dat sure i gettin bored and most dangerous im will gettin fat! Dun want! :P hmmm how about do bissnss? interesting.. my dream is to open da butik. Rina's butik! hehehehe... so dat i can shop for my butik. besides that i also can travel finding the nice-nice n gud-gud clothes for my butik. :) well... dats only dream... i dun know either i can achieve it or not.. Life not simple as dat rite?

k la.. enuf for berangan'ness rina! back to work.. Dis wekend my bos will not around.. yahhhoooo! but..... there are a lot of things need to be done by me n azrin! huh! x bestnye.. i thot we can enjoy if bos not around.. :(

Da whole day at the site... juz back home at 9.30 pm... sooooo tired! n da whole body sakit.. pity me rite?